I am writing this today, because I am determine to eat better for my body. In 2013 I lost a total of 12 pounds. I weigh 98 pounds at the time. I felt energetic, never had headache or stomach pain. I was peaceful and my hair and nails were growing so fast.
Everything changed after one trip to new york, We were on the go and we had pizza, gyros, and burgers. I return home sick and continue being sick for a week. I went back to my old diet and hard exercise lost the weight. by july I was about 103 or so. I stopped having menstrual cycles. I was okay with that, but I had to make sure this would not affect me from conceiving later in life. I went to the Obgyn Doctor, who prescribed me hormones to obtain my menstrual cycle again. This medications open my appetite and the fear of not having a period again made me eat again. By the 2014 I was between 104-107 I was shocked. I used to freak out when I saw I was 103.
Anyhow, family events continue on coming, school and work gave me the munchies and I was always too tired. I kept eating. Although I eat healthy all i could think of was food.
Today i am 110.4 And I would be okay with it because I still look lean except for that fact that my stomach is flabby when is touch but appears tones and bloated.
My headaches are back, I'm always tired. and Thinking about food. Today after a shower it hit me, I can't continue letting go and eating what my mind tells me. I should listen to my body and not my hormones.
The bloating is affecting me. So today I am going back to the old me only stronger and willing. All although for the past year I've been saying this, this time is different because this time food is messing with my health and is catching up to me.. I wont allow food to come into my life and ruin me,
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